Reflecting on My Reflection

When life still moves slow and home is now where most of our life is lived, a small pocket of thoughts starts brewing. We happily consider at first, what we can do with all this free time. Once we’ve watched enough TV and slept many hours, we move into what we can start exploring or experimenting with. A new hobby or an attempt for it develops, and we either go all in or start the cycle again. After going through the motions many times, our internal voice has become stronger and confronts us. Feelings and thoughts that we had dug under busyness knock at the door. They no longer want to be mute. This is their time; their spotlight.

The internal conversation might start calmly, or it might be aggressive. The time has come for you to face your reality. The reality we have all been remiss of confronting because we “didn’t have time.” No time for your wellbeing? Then what were you investing time in? If you aren’t well, you can’t help those around you be well. Yet this is the world that we live in. It never stops turning, and many times it feels that if you take a breath, you are just sitting on the dusty floor of the marathon of your life. Is it so, though? Where are we in such a hurry to get to? A new job? A big house? Money? Marriage? Are those truly the goals in our lives? There is more to live for than stuff and relationship status.

“Finally,” you might say to yourself, “you realized that!” What is “that” for you? What have you opened your eyes to? What disguises have been removed to show you the truth? I can share with you one of mine. For so long I knew that I wanted to do more with my time off. It was consumed by media and it left me so dissatisfied. After my I-am-always-at-home binge, I have slowly moved into other things. I have been more active and tried new recipes. I have cleaned out my closet, revealing that I already have so much that I love. I have started house projects that have made this place bring even more joy to me. At home, I had the time to refresh and reconsider. I looked at what I really wanted for me, and little by little have put some distance from what was eating the possibility of it. There is still a lot that I want to do. I’ve already started reading more and want to learn more about other topics that will help me professionally and personally.

Last year I was given the opportunity to start anew and I have taken it. I don’t want to go back to so much unfruitful bustle. It had nothing but stress, overspending, and superficiality for me. This new north would not have happened if I didn’t have time to think. When we are constantly going, we don’t stop to evaluate our path. We might miss a turn or not do what we planned to do once we got there. Reflecting on what is going on in and around us will allow us to remove the noise of life and help our inner voice weigh in. It gives us the chance to bring down the volume of external influences, that later we might realize we don’t truly value but continued listening due to a herd mentality, and tune into ourselves.

It is such a gift to live out your ideas, thoughts and passions. Let’s not waste it by living out somebody else’s and naturally being unhappy. Take some time to reflect and face your truth. Only this way will you be able to healthily move on to the next stage in your life.

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